Former President Bill Clinton claims the only way to ease his anxieties was to have an affair with ex-White House intern, Monica Lewinsky. It helped him manage the stress of his job and personal issues.
He didn't realize the domino effect of destruction it would cause in his life until he was on impeachment trial in 1998. During that time he lies to not only his gullible wife, Hillary, but to the grand jury.
Reported by The DailyMail:
Bill offers an apology to Lewinsky in the documentary that will premiere on Friday, and says he felt 'terrible' that her life was defined by their affair.
But he said that at some point when things don't return to normal 'you've got to decide how to define normal', suggesting the infamous former intern should just move on.
The four-part series features extraordinary access to the Clintons' inner circle and examines Hillary's public life from her student days to losing the 2016 election to Donald Trump.
But the part about the Lewinsky affair - which the political couple rarely address in public - will likely be the most scrutinized.
The scandal led to Bill being impeached in 1998. But he survived the trial in the Senate and remained in office during his second term.
The last time Bill spoke about the scandal was in 2018 and it backfired spectacularly because he said that he did not owe Lewinsky a private apology.
This time he went through in great detail, at times appearing emotional as he talked about the moment he finally came clean to his wife.
His hand was forced in 1998 when it became apparent he had lied to a grand jury investigating his personal affairs by denying the affair.
Bill had also denied it to Hillary - and she believed him.
Heres a partial transcript from the new Documentary, "Hillary", coming to Hulu this Friday:
Bill: I went and sat on the bed and talked to her. I told her exactly what happened when it happened. I said I feel terrible about it.
Hillary: I was just devastated. I could not believe it. I was so personally just hurt and I can't believe this, I can't believe you lied.
Bill: She said you have to tell your daughter. She said that's worse than me. So I did that, which was awful'
Bill's reasoning to why he did it:
'Everybody's life has pressures and disappointments, terrors, fears of whatever.
'Things I did to manage my anxieties for years. I'm a different, totally different person than I was, a lot of that stuff 20 years ago'
Hillary: We saw a counselor, (there were) painful, painful discussions.
Bill: Counseling was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do but it was necessary. She (Hillary) deserved it, Chelsea deserved it and I needed it'
Bill talking about how he feels for Monica:
'I feel terrible about the fact that Monica Lewinsky's life was defined by it, unfairly I think. Over the years I've watched her trying to get a normal life back again but you've got to decide how to define normal'
After all was said, Hillary took Bill's side and fought his impeachment trial with him. I'm very interested in watching this documentary. It'll probably turn out like a lifetime show.